What I did not know that I did not know...

I did not know that being a child is basically being able to act however you want, and being an adult is acting how everyone else expects. Realizing that I have those same expectations of other adults as well. Actually, giving a crap about other peoples needs and feelings more than your own. Most people eventually figure out that being a child was a much simpler time with no mortgage or electric bills, or even worrying how am I going to put gas in the car. But it is so much more than that. For most kids it's about not seeing the ugly in the world, or realizing that the people who are suppose to look out for us are sometimes the very people who hurt us the most. Loving someone is simple and easy not constantly questioned or doubted. It just is!

As I was loading the dishwasher tonight it came to me this is my life. My life as a wife and a mother. I am blessed to have some of the comforts we tend to take for granted, and I do take them for granted like most people most of the time. But not tonight, tonight I am thankful for everything in my life. Which includes being thankful for what I did not know that I did not know!

Child Supportive ( Kind of)

So, I have chosen not to tell my biological mother that I am expecting again. She is not what you would really call the supportive type and I am so happy about this baby, I just don't care to hear it! Although, it also feels kind of cowardly, and yes eventually she will figure it out. It is funny when you have your first or even second child for that matter everyone is AH! Congratulations! You move on to your third or more and everyone is like enough already! Having children is a very personal decision. I understand when people want none, one, or two! But why judge others that CAN do more. No, I am not rich, but I provide for my kids. I have never been on any kind of assistance, am able to stay home with my kids 80% of the time, they have everything they need and for the most part want.

I think this post has turned into an e-mail to Becky more so than a post. I apologize. I guess what I am trying to say be supportive of those you claim to love.